Seeing my pitiable condition of trying to avoid feeling love in my so-called service to him, he strongly shook this conditioning. Without feeling a connection to Śrī Guru, all the busyness, even in the name of service, helps very little. But if we feel this connection, our love for him can grow through our service to him. I left it so late to understand this truth: śrī-guru-caraṇe rati ei se uttamā-gati. Now I can only contemplate my misfortune and weep. from pg.221

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