Day 236: Gaurābda 533, Caitra Māsa, Dvitiya, 06 May 2019 – Monday
What is the nature of bhakti? You should know. Always to please, always to satisfy the Lord—nothing else.
[To young boys in the audience…]
I want that you should all come near to me and hear. Oh, yes these boys. Always I want to see you with me in my classes. I will be happy. Very happy.
If anyone says that, “In old age I will chant and remember,” then there is no guarantee that he will become old. In a couple days he could die. Old age may never come. Better to chant and remember from the beginning of life. Don’t wait for old age.
Srila Gurudeva – May 06, 2001 New Braja, California
Radhika’s Abhisara with Krsna
Here there is a reference to a pastime. Srimati Radhika is at first not ready to do abhisara (arrangement for meeting) and meet Krsna. Krsna has sent Vrnda devi as His messenger to inform Her that He will immediately die if He cannot see Her. She must therefore meet Him at the sanket kunja, either in Vrndavana, near the Yamuna, at Sanket, or wherever Krsna has indicated.
The duti, messenger, may be Vrnda devi, and it may also be Paurnamasi or Nandimukhi. At times, Krsna Himself, as apta-duti, may indicate His desires to Srimati Radhika—not by telling, but simply by glancing from the corners of His eyes. And, by the corners of Her eyes, Srimati Radhika also admits Her desires. Krsna’s vamsi may also act as the messenger. Vamsi is also called apta-duti or vamsi-duti. In this way there may be so many messengers.
Srimati Radhika then proceeds towards the kunja, bringing with Her only a very few, highly qualified sakhis like Rupa Manjari and Rati Manjari. At times, Subala may also come and lead Her. The night is very dark and cold, and the sky is full of clouds pouring rain. On such a night, to avoid detection, Radhika dresses accordingly in a black dress and dark ornaments, and She removes or silences Her anklebells with a cloth. On full moon or moonlit nights She dresses completely in white.
On another day Vrnda devi came from Krsna. She offered many prayers, wept, and did everything else possible, but Śrīmatī Radhika’s mana did not leave. She would not meet Krsna. She would not allow Him to come to Her, and therefore He was very unhappy. Time was passing, and finally Krsna asked Subala, “Can you help me?” Subala replied, “Surely I will help you.” He at once went to Śrīmati Radhika and spoke in such a way that She began to weep. He told Her, “Krsna is now about to die. He will not…” At once Srimati Radhika became ready, and Subala Sakha went ahead. Then, keeping Her hand on the shoulder of Vrnda and accompanied only by Rupa Manjari and one or two other manjaris, Srimati Radhika went to Krsna. One day it was like this, on another day Lalita and Visakha were there, and on another it was different again. The pastime may take place in several ways; not only in one way.
As Srimati Radhika now nears the kunja and sees Krsna waiting, She at once turns and is ready to return to Her palace. The sakhis are thinking, “Why is She returning?” Krsna is also thinking so. He approaches Her and at first prays to Her to stay, but She ignores Him and continues to leave for Her own palace. Krsna then creates obstructions, blocks Her path, and at last catches hold of Her hands and tries to take Her with Him. At that time, Srimati Radhika feels intense pleasure in Her heart—tears are in Her eyes, and on Her mouth there is anger. So many bhavas are coming at the same time, and this is known as kila-kincit-bhava. Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu Himself displayed these transcendental ecstasies during the Ratha-yatra festival.
At last Sri Krsna takes Srimati Radhika to the kunja, and Rupa Manjari is seeing Their meeting through a hole in the creepers of the kunja. Rupa Manjari becomes astonished and thinks, “Such a beautiful meeting. I’ve never seen anything like this. They are so premi, full of love. I am greatly fortunate to see this.”
Then, seeing that Rati Manjari is not there, she calls, “Oh, my dear Rati Manjari, where are you? Are you not seeing this? If not, your eyes are not successful. The success of the eyes is only to see these beautiful, sweet exchanges.” Thinking like this, Rupa Manjari leaves the kunja to search for Rati Manjari.
This is a natural feeling. If a man acquires something very sweet and tasteful, he wants that his friend also taste it. If a disciple tastes something wonderful, he wants his Gurudeva to also taste it. If a devotee obtains something very tasteful, he desires that Radhika and Krsna also taste it. He does not want to taste such sweetness alone. So Rupa Manjari is looking here and there and thinking, “Where is my dear, so dear, Rati Manjari, the very bosom sakhi of Srimati Radhika?”
Rati Manjari always serves and learns how to serve under the guidance of Rupa Manjari. In turn, Rupa Manjari wants that every taste should also be savored by Rati Manjari. Therefore, leaving this scene, she at once went to search, thinking, “Where is Rati Manjari?” Rati Manjari had just completed her service and was also searching for Rupa Manjari, thinking, “Where is Rupa Manjari?” In this way they were both searching for each other…