Day 228: Gaurābda 533, Caitra Māsa, Dvadasi, 17 Apr 2019 – Wednesday
Rati is there in the shape of śraddhā, and ruci is there in the shape of śraddhā, but gradually it develops. Ruci first appears in śraddhā and ultimately it comes towards the iṣṭadeva. A person who has such thick ruci has no taste for worldly desires and worldly things. He does not commit any aparādha (offenses).
I know that you cannot understand fully. However, by doing bhajana—doing, doing, doing—you can come to that stage. Don’t try to understand through your intelligence. Try to understand through our Guru-varga (disciplic succession). We should try to realize what our line of ācāryas have written. I cannot be different from Śrīla Bhaktivinoda Ṭhākura. What I am telling is his remnants.
You should try to do more bhajana. Don’t try to understand by mental speculation. Try to do bhajana and pray that you can advance. Try to chant Hare Kṛṣṇa—the transcendental names. Have strong faith in the name and then everything will come.
Srila Gurudeva – April 17, 2000 Mathurā
Glories of Diksa and Siksa Guru
Dāsa Gosvāmī next prays:
prabhur api yadunandano ya eṣa
mama kṛtavaṁs tam ahaṁ guruṁ prapadye
Let me surrender to my spiritual master, Yadunandana Ācārya. Being a powerful and dear devotee of the Supreme Lord, he sprinkled the nectar of his mercy upon me.
“One Yadunandana is Kṛṣṇa, but His nearest and dearest, my beloved Guru-pāda-padma, is also named Yadunandana. He is the embodiment of Kṛṣṇa’s mercy; therefore, he is my guru. I took shelter of him and he also accepted me. He offered me to the lotus feet of Mahāprabhu, made my relation with Svarūpa Dāmodara, and gave me service under guidance of Rūpa Gosvāmī.”
Kṛṣṇa–mantra is given by dīkṣā-guru, and śikṣā-guru teaches vraja-bhakti or rāgānuga-bhakti. Sometimes dīkṣā-guru also accepts the position of śikṣā-guru. With respect to dīkṣā-guru, the disciple has a mood of awe and reverence, but śikṣā-guru is like one’s dear friend, with him everything can be openly discussed. If one disrespects dīkṣā-guru, that is a great problem in the life of a sādhaka, but śikṣā-guru is always helping and is not disturbed if one perchance misbehaves.
A mother always takes care of her babies. If babies are angry and sometimes break or destroy things, their mother is never angry with them. This is a mundane example. Śikṣā-guru, however, is millions of times more kind than a mother.
Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī now glorifies his dīkṣā-guru, Yadunandana Ācārya: “My Guru Mahārāja took me out of māyā; he gave me power to renounce all material things. If my Guru-pāda-padma did not accept me, I couldn’t have given up anything. Because of my Guru-pāda-padma’s mercy and power, I had no taste or attachment to my beautiful young wife, wealth, or anything. After that, so much respect followed me, but Gurudeva protected me; he always gave a strong boundary so that nothing could come inside and disturb me. If Guru-pāda-padma didn’t protect me, then I could never progress.”
Raghunatha dasa Gosvami sometimes was in antardasa, in the internal state of awareness, sometimes he came back into ardha-baryadasa or half internal-half external consciousness, and sometimes to complete external consciousness. When he was in external consciousness, he remembered how much mercy he had received from Yadu-nandana Acarya, from Haridasa Thakura, Advaita Acarya, and all the associates of Mahaprabhu. They would all come to meet with Raghunatha dasa Gosvami. In his childhood they would come to his home.
Yadu-nandana Acarya arranged a chance for Raghunatha to escape his family. Therefore he says, “Prema asvadana yadu-nandana, ‘I am praying to Yadu-nandana Acarya, my Sri Gurudeva, who has blessed me with the shower of his mercy. He is famous as Yadu-nandana Acarya and has a storehouse of Krsna`s love. That Sri Guru has given me incomparable mercy, I therefore always remember and pray and take shelter of that Sri Gurudeva.”
That Guru is very glorious and great, who makes our relationship fixed with the transcendental world and separates us from this world, whereas most people only make us more and more entangled in this world. Therefore I am always praying to sad-guru, who is the object of the Lord`s great mercy. And therefore I am always remembering he who has helped me escape samsara.
In this prison of material life, we are in the jail of material family life. To escape is extremely difficult. Even if we escape and come out, then again we enter back into that place. We cannot remain outside of samsara and family-life—our mind is restless and disturbed outside of this. Our mind is always running back there. Wherever we go, we take with us our four-walled house, which is our prison. There we think, “This is my mother, this is my father, this is my friend, my relative, my wife, my husband.” We have developed this habit since many lifetimes.
Das Gosvami therefore says, “My guru-pada-padma separated me from everything and gave me such a great chance to escape samsara and enter the realm of absorption in Krsna’s eternal pastimes and service. He took me out of this fearsome samsara and brought me to the Lord’s lotus feet.
By one-pointed surrender to Sri Guru, we will become recipients of the wealth in the heart of Sri Guru.
Who understands the glories of Śrīla Gurudeva? If someone sends a poor helpless person to school, maintains him in every way, and takes care of him attentively, then when he becomes a post graduate, and thereafter a minister, he thinks, “This person was so kind to me. I was a poor orphan with no helper; I was suffering in the street and no one gave me one drop of water or food, but that person always helped me.”
If anyone crosses māyā, he will be somewhat able to understand the glories of Guru-pāda-padma and his guru-mantra. At the time of svarūpa-siddhi he will understand Gurudeva’s position. Śrīla Gurudeva will also arrange a śikṣā-guru for his disciples to help them achieve svarūpa-siddhi. If Guru-pāda-padma doesn’t arrange this, then we will go running the wrong way.
If there is no attachment with Gurudeva, then we will only have relation with māyā and her family. Relatives will tell us, “This is your mother, father, aunt, uncle, brother, sister, grandfather, and grandmother.” But Gurudeva gives the identity of our soul and our soul’s family.
“Oh! Where are you going?” Gurudeva exclaims, “Go to Vṛndāvana, Jagannātha Purī, and Navadvīpa-dhāma. Stay with Vaiṣṇavas, they will protect you. Chant harināma there, pray in the morning, hear hari-kathā and take mahā-prasāda.” This is Gurudeva’s arrangement and protection. He teaches and helps us, giving us the disposition to gradually progress. This is his causeless mercy. If we forget that Guru-pāda-padma, we will lose everything! And if we always offer obeisance to him with respect, then we will cross māyā and enter Vraja.
Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī says, “Aho! These senses and family are so attractive. Young age! Wealth! An opulent kingdom! I had everything. This is mahā–andha-kūpa, a deep, dark well. How can I escape from this? This is impossible for me. O Gurudeva! You are so kind. You are an ocean of mercy. He Gurudeva! On one side my nature pulls me, ‘Come, come, there is a nice bed, wife, and all enjoyment! Young age, wealth, everything is available to enjoy.’ On the other side you throw your rope of mercy into this well of family life and pull me up, saying, ‘Hey! Don’t look at this side.’ You sent Haridāsa Ṭhākura, Balarāma Ācārya, Advaita Ācārya, and the Gosvāmīs.”
Haridāsa Ṭhākura never went near any king. This is not the nature of sādhus. It is impossible! He would not go to the homes of wealthy men and beg for any wealth. But he went to the home of the aristocrats Hiranya-Govardhana just to see Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī.
When I came to Mathurā, Śrīla Gurudeva taught me, “Never go and beg, ‘Oh, give me one paisa, one rupee.’ Only beg for the mercy of Guru and Vaiṣṇavas, the powerful transcendental personalities in Vraja-maṇḍala, and the Gosvāmīs. Pray to them. Don’t be greedy for anything mundane.” In this world, if Guru and Vaiṣṇavas don’t help us, then the illusory energy of the Lord defeats everyone; it smashes us and makes us into halavā and chutney. Then people lick, eat and destroy us, and pass us out like stool. If Guru and Vaiṣṇavas protect us, our backbone will be strong, and our health and wealth will be God’s property, dedicated only for His service.
Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī prays, “How is your mercy? Aho! You took me out of this deep well, and offered me at the lotus feet of Caitanya Mahāprabhu and Svarūpa Dāmodara. I could not understand this at that time. You are not cruel to me, but very kind. Caitanya-candra is the independent Lord.
But you prayed for my sake; He then accepted me and always took care of me. He offered me to Svarūpa Dāmodara, who then taught me everything; all this is your mercy….”